mmkay so i have a buttload of updates for this biotch.
most importantly, i no longer live with my sister. she kicked me out because we disagree in more areas than not and that place was pure hell. now, we get along OKAY but i think there's still some tension bubbling below the surface. not enough to mess anything up at work, tho.
as far as the other sister goes.. well.. i have no idea. i don't care to think about it because i believe whether or not i'm liked changes with the direction the wind blows. it's dumb. it's unnecessary. i'm no closer to sweating it than i was when it first began.
ANYwho..
so i'm staying at steven's now. i'm stressed and still getting used to it, but i feel strangely happy. :) it's not permanent, but i think my stay here will be a splendiforous one.
on the ninth, i start working at OUC again. so i'll pretty much be working from 10am-9:??pm. that is unless people at work continue to brush off all the problems at work on me & i get fired. it's SERIOUS bullshit. i'm told i'm doing something wrong... i pay extra attention to every little detail. i GET SHIT DONE, yet somehow it doesn't show. i don't fucking understand. i think they assume it's a matter of pride. i assure you, it is not. i can admit when i've messed up, no matter how many times i have. and i can SWEAR MY LIFE on it.. i have been doing everything i'm supposed to do. i'm not saying i'm perfect. with so many details, i'm sure there are a couple things i've overlooked or made booboo's on. but i've been putting myself through anxiety every fucking day of work to make sure that i DO EVERYTHING RIGHT. once again, my best has proven to just not be good enough. fucking bullshit. i don't know what else i can do. i don't know how many times i have said that and i'm beginning to think no one is listening to me.
assfuck isn't at work this week. yesterday was one of the most pleasant i've ever had at that place. coincidence? who knows? (hardly.)
hmm, have i left anything out?
guess i should throw in the mushy details of my love life. :)
Ryan called me sunday.. and i think ...was it last wednesday? possibly thursday. maybe even friday. i just know he called me twice within a week's time. *sigh* twas nice. that's all i shall reveal of the inner workings of my fondness for him. can't say too much & jinx myself. :/
oh yeah, the beast machine was fixed on sunday.. she needs an oil change. i'm deciding whether or not i should wait till i get paid (two weeks) or just go ahead and spend a little of my gas money on an oil change. hmm. i shall consult someone with knowledge of these things.
*exhales* there i think that pretty much covers everything.
now all i can do is sit and wait for live to throw something else my way.

getting ready for work would be a good idea right about now.
ta ta, world!