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Tuesday, February 20, 2007

that stupid bastard on the radio was off by.. oh..
40,000!!!...ish.
..sucking the fun out of death.

"Calculations show it would strike somewhere along a narrow track that stretches eastward from Siberia to the west coast of Africa. Astronomers are monitoring the asteroid named Apophis, which has a 1 in 45,000 chance of striking Earth on April 13, 2036. "

i mean.. i don't WANT the world to end or anything. but that way it would at least be exciting! :(

"The 20-million-tonne asteroid could be heading the way towards Kamchatkans and Venezuelans. Californians have even more reason to worry the asteroid is more likely to hit the Pacific Ocean, triggering a tsunami that could devastate the west coast of North America."

see? THAT'S how i'd wanna go out. it'd be a hell of a show.

okay, i know this seems a little sadistic and... strange? but... i dunno. i've thought a lot about death over the last few years. i know it's coming. you know it's coming. denial doesn't make i any further from the truth. i just don't know WHEN mine is coming.. and i really don't want to know the exact time it will come.. but i would like it to be something EXCITING! ya know? go out with a bang.
on the ride home from steven's tonight, i was thinking about it. the thought of it happening really inspires me to really live my life. stop doubting things and just DO what i want to do with my life without that fear of failure. that fear is what makes me fail, ironically.
that was the best drive i've ever had, and the clearest moment of thought i've had in a LONG time. i felt almost euphoric.
i am here. now. breathing.
why worry about what happens tomorrow.. or years from now. here and now is what matters. i'm not wasting one more minute of my life feeling sorry for myself. not even because i have ABSOLUTELY NO REASON to feel sorry for myself. but i'm wasting time with it. things could be so much worse. i think everyone needs to stop and think for a second... & CARPEthefuckingDIEM!

maybe i am bipolar.. but i'm at the good end right now.
i feel like deleting every negative thing i've posted on here. in fact, i think i will.

have a GREAT night world. :)

in a nutshell

The poster child for passive aggression.

Overly-passionate.
Under-achieving.
Joyfully tossed wherever the wind will blow.
I'm pretty much everything
and nothing
at the same time.

& I am here to tell you now, I'm thoroughly uninterested in your opinion of me. I am alive & I exist on this planet, regardless of it. It is your right to love or hate me, though it will effect nothing, in the end.

coming soon

...or someday.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

new outlook

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Tuesday, February 20, 2007 new outlook that stupid bastard on the radio was off by.. oh.. 40,000!!!...ish. ..sucking the fun out of death. "Calculations show it would strike somewhere along a narrow track that stretches eastward from Siberia to the west coast of Africa. Astronomers are monitoring the asteroid named Apophis, which has a 1 in 45,000 chance of striking Earth on April 13, 2036. " i mean.. i don't WANT the world to end or anything. but that way it would at least be exciting! :( "The 20-million-tonne asteroid could be heading the way towards Kamchatkans and Venezuelans. Californians have even more reason to worry the asteroid is more likely to hit the Pacific Ocean, triggering a tsunami that could devastate the west coast of North America." see? THAT'S how i'd wanna go out. it'd be a hell of a show. okay, i know this seems a little sadistic and... strange? but... i dunno. i've thought a lot about death over the last few years. i know it's coming. you know it's coming. denial doesn't make i any further from the truth. i just don't know WHEN mine is coming.. and i really don't want to know the exact time it will come.. but i would like it to be something EXCITING! ya know? go out with a bang. on the ride home from steven's tonight, i was thinking about it. the thought of it happening really inspires me to really live my life. stop doubting things and just DO what i want to do with my life without that fear of failure. that fear is what makes me fail, ironically. that was the best drive i've ever had, and the clearest moment of thought i've had in a LONG time. i felt almost euphoric. i am here. now. breathing. why worry about what happens tomorrow.. or years from now. here and now is what matters. i'm not wasting one more minute of my life feeling sorry for myself. not even because i have ABSOLUTELY NO REASON to feel sorry for myself. but i'm wasting time with it. things could be so much worse. i think everyone needs to stop and think for a second... & CARPEthefuckingDIEM! maybe i am bipolar.. but i'm at the good end right now. i feel like deleting every negative thing i've posted on here. in fact, i think i will. have a GREAT night world. :)