i've had an overall bad day.. there's only one thing that could possibly make it worse aaaaaaaaaaaaaand....

..................GOOD! it didn't happen. maybe the world isn't AS terrible.
so allow me to sort-of explain. i'll start with what sucked today:

1-the usual bitchy fucking drama that my sister and i have been going through for the past week or two. i'm getting really god damn exhausted and i don't know what to do. i know i could go about things in a different, more productive manner.. but i am NOT going to get bossed around and treated like shit JUST because i'm not catering to her every god damn desire.
2-i'm stressed as shit about money. i'm supposed to be partially paying for a car on friday on top of the rent. i hope to GOD i'll have enough. i'm sick to death of procrastinating about this. i don't care if it takes a while before i have enough money to actually DRIVE it. i just wanna get it out of the way. :(
3-fucking lonely... and stuff....
4-work has started exhausting me further. the person that's training me doesn't exactly explain how to do things in the clearest of ways. and when i mess up or forget something, she gets irritated. but hey... it couldn't possibly be in ANY way her fault. it's ALWAYS something else. it's ALWAYS me. will i ever get used to it? i should already be.

but there are some silver lining-ish events that took place today...
we just switched locations (at work) and, when i got there, i was surprised with my own cubicle and everything. the place has much more room. i can play music and work in relative privacy with ANGIE! :D
& my friends are cheering me up on myspace.
& maybe.. just maybe.. tomorrow everything will be better

oh yeah.. & larisa was nice enough to inform me that, among the pointless SHIT her and Lael have to talk about.. they discussed how Lael's "groceries have gone down $80 a week" since i've been out of her house. i wonder if that includes what Lael isn't buying for herself since her self-obsession has taken over completely and decided to stop eating.

okay ladies.. you want something to talk about?!?
watch.fucking.this....