Wednesday, May 25, 2005
later on that day
later on that day
well i just finished eating and i'm about to go to bed cuz i'm beat. but, of course, i had to write in here. it's strangely fun to entertain the idea that people are interested in my day. aaaanyway...
today i went to work at like 8:30. it sucked until 3:00 when i got off. i bought a mirror, which i hope to use to make a vanity kind of area in my room. i need to get a table to put it on. i'm cheap, therefor, the mirror is cheap. but it WILL work! ...as soon as i get the table =)
so, after i got off work, my sister swung by the house so i could change into some normal clothes. i got all dolled up... i don't believe i have ever looked more feminine... ever. it was fun being girlie! =D ok, so, after i got dressed we went to my foot doctor man and did some pre-op paperwork. those things always make me nervous cuz the doctors like, "it's very unlikely, but we have to have you sign this just in case you DIE!" lol. well, he didn't say it like that.. but that's basically what he's saying. that's when all these horrible thoughts of something going terribley wrong with the anesthesia pop into my head and i get all scared and trembley. lol. woe is me. but i'll be fine.
oh! ..my! ...i forgot, like, the best thing that happened today! i went SHOPPING!! *omg ahhh!* lol. i lurve shopping! i am female aren't i? i bought this long white frilly skirt that makes me feel 7 again! i swear i'm gonna wear it. i pwomise... ...just as soon as larisa gives me my FUCKING flip-flops back!! i should probably get some new ones anyway... hmmm.... SO!... then we went to this HUUUUUUUGE shoe place called Broadway Shoes (or something) and i found the cutest little purse......... purses are my thing.... seriously..... no joke =.... most chicks !!!LOVE!!!! shoes... not me... i !!!!LOVE!!!! purses. i cannot possibley own enough!
then we went home and i tried on the shirts my sister got. they are SO cute. she gave me this one black tube top thingy. and theres this other tank top thing. i forgot the actual name for it... something french. but anywho.. i had fun.
later on, we went to kroger so i could get my perscriptions. w00t w00t! i got percocet! fun stuff! i wonder if i'll actually need them this time. last time i didn't. i just took it for fun haha. of course i had to lie to my mom & say i was in agonizing pain for her to give me the "narcotic". *rolls eyes* she's so gay. this time i live with my sister and she doesn't care if i have them in my possession or not. she knows i'm not stupid enough to take more than two (or ....three? ;) ) at a time.
hehe, last time was so fun tho. i'd be all fucked up on percs playing Sims on PS2 all day. good fuckin times, man. wow.. i'm a loser haha. ok anyway.. moving on *whistles*...
okie dokie well i've written a book, here, almost and now i'm tired. being up more than 12 hours sucks balls. so i'm gonna go dream of happy things.
toodles!
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
today there is an abundance of slackage
today there is an abundance of slackage
well i'm bored. and there's nothing to do. and even if there were something to do, i wouldn't be able to do it because i am babysitting.... LIKE ALWAYS!!! ugh. i watch this child more than his own mother does. it's rediculous. he needs to be in school or day care or something that doesn't involve me. i'm so bored that i'm tired again. this is stupid. i have no good ideas as to what i can do to pass the time...
so here i am. thinking of things to write. i'll probably write later on tonight too. eww i just remembered i have to be at work at 8:30 tomorrow morning. yuck. i hate getting up that early. i hate work. so i don't expect i shall be in a friendly mood. i hope that bitch lady doesn't come back and yell at me some more because i didn't ask if she found everything ok at fucking kroger.... that's a bullshit question. people raise hell if they don't find what they want anyway so why ask if it's coming to me anyway. she needs to go die, along with anyone else at work who has ever told me to tuck in my shirt or not sit down and read magazines. that not being able to sit down shit is bullshit, too! they always bitch about cashiers needing to look more productive. well how productive do they think i can be if my feet hurt?!?!?!? they're just fucking dumbasses. people are dumbasses. i stand there all day just fantasizing about how GLORIOUS it would be, the next time someone pisses me off, to just say "hey.. FUCK you, FUCK your groceries, FUCK this job. I QUIT, have fun bagging your own shit. i hope you choke on it and die!" wow, such a tempting thought. anyway, wow i wrote more than i thought i would. if there's anything left to write later and i'm still bored to the point of near death, i'll be back. toodles!
Monday, May 23, 2005
much has been done
today was booooooringgggggg. a million and one fucking people called me and the whole day i just felt like crawling in a corner, balling up, and being alone. then my brothers came over, and we went out for pizza at the square. no one else could've dragged me out of my house, today, but them. they rock. and i'm so frikkin tired. it's weird. i got about 13 hours of sleep last night. yesterday was, i guess, my breaking point. i came home after work and passed out on my bed. i think it was my bodies way of telling me it's sick of having weird sleeping patterns. i had great sleep though. i got home that morning and thought i was going shopping with my sister and her husband's mom, so i was getting ready to do that. then my boss called and she was like "you know you were supposed to be here at 11:30?" and i looked at the clock and it was around 12. "uuugggghhhh" i never get to go shopping with my sister. she never wants to go when i'm not busy and want to go and i'm never free when she wants to go. it's gay. she's gay. work is gay. but yea, to sum up my day: i woke up. watched some tv. draven woke up and a few people called me. i talked to Jon till my sister got home. then my brothers got here, and i met Josh's new girlfriend (?) and we went to the square, ate some pizza, talked to my mom on the phone and almost made her cry because she's uber-sensitive, came home, and now i'm listening to some music. wow. busy day huh? well i can say it was the opposite of yesterday. then tomorrow i get to pretty much do the same thing all over again. eww.. i need to schedule another dentist appointment. yuck. they want me to die a slow and painful death. eww. then on friday i have my foot surgery. *sarcastic woot!*.... aaaaaaanyway. i'm gonna go check my MySpace then go dream about something that doesn't so closely resemble hell... toodles!
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
ignore it and it will go away
today sucked. but i'll live. i got 4 hours of sleep since i slept way late yesterday. so i woke up after 4 hours, went to work have alive feeling, then i started to feel nauseous probably because of something i ate. so i tried to see if i could go home early and the fucking supid bitch in charge told me to go throw up and come back to work because there were "not enough cashiers" and it was "a busy time". she was like, "even I have to be on a register" then 5 mins later she's off socializing with other employees. see that pisses me off. i work hard and i have stayed late so many fucking times when they asked me. i'm getting fucked in the ass when it comes to getting paid and it's a shitty fucking job. ugh. i hate people. but i'm ok now because i came home and fell asleep for about 3 hours then woke up to really yummy spaghetti! as far as what's going on with me, i feel like i'm changing again, but like i'm finally starting to feel like myself again. like i'm waking up from a dream or something. right now i feel a little depressed. i know why, kinda. but it's petty and not worth saying. i just don't like myself, because of things i've done and how i feel about certain... circumstances right now. i hate how neurotic i am. i wish i could just stop thinking. stop worrying. people don't know how much of a mess i really am, probably because i hide it. but, i'm not gonna get into it. people say i'm the only one that can fix myself, but i can't fix something if i don't know what the problem is. so, i'll just sit here and listen to my depressing music and smile like nothings wrong...
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