lael and i just had a GIGANTIC argument, as we tend to. but, she's never quite said "have a nice life" before. not that i for one second believe that shit. & quite honestly, i'm not phased. she's NOT the sister i used to know. she's been heading in a real undesirable direction as far as her personality goes, for a long time.
she's the most judgmental, superficial, self absorbed person i know.
yes, she has helped me a lot. not that anyone owes me anything, but i was not my responsibility at the age of 16. where the fuck was i gonna go?! MOM should be thanking her. if not for lael, i would've probably ended up in a foster home. and right now, i'm beginning to question whether or not that would've made a big difference. my family alienates me; i alienate my family. but, oh wait, it's not BAD when they do it, because they're so farther ABOVE me. what the fuck? get the fuck over yourselves. you treated me more like an equal when i was 12. i guess it's a family trend to hate people more when they start forming their own opinions. jesus fucking christ, am i not allowed to be my own person?!?! who the fuck cares what i think anyway? why can't they just accept that i'm not them.. i will NEVER be them... i am who I am and who i am alone. they can't change that.
if, the only way lael is content with me is by my taking orders from her like a little bitch, then i'm sorry lael. i don't compromise myself for the comfort of ANYONE. you have known this for a long time.

i'm out of shit to say. i'm just disappointed.
i care about myself... that's not a bad thing. i wish people would stop trying to make me feel like it is. if i don't care about myself, who will? they get pissed when i sit around and expect help from them, they get pissed when i do things for myself and want them to stay out of it..................

FUCK
you!