Well, Leeloo did not work out. so i concocted a costume out of random crap i have hidden deep, deep inside my closet. just like last year. this year, however, was better. i had fun and actually thought to myself, "i wish i could dress like this everyday"
but, that's just cuz i'm ....damaged in the head or something. oh well, makes for a good laugh, wouldn't you say?

today i decided to figure out how to send pics from my cell to my online album on T-Mobile, which i just recently acquired with my new cell phone. well, i pretty much stumbled apon a bunch of pleasant surprises:
1.) the quality of pictures that my cell takes is much better than i expected it would be.
example:


2.) their size is bigger than expected (click on above image for full view)
3.) i have an online album that i can share with people and pretty much use as a host, instead of going through the trouble of saving them to the computer, then uploading them to here or photobucket. !
4.) i had this awesome idea (entertaining the thought that people might actually keep an eye on what happens on my blog) to post the album link on here. (located in my navigation bar)
so i can take pictures when the mood strikes me and they'll be viewable before i even get online. this idea confirms my dorky lack of a life, but hey, i think its neat. kinda like those people who live on webcams... but you can't see me whenever. less intrusion. woot!

this is fun! gives me something to do. yay!

as far as i'm concerned.
there is nothing left for me here.
my brother is moving to texas in two weeks.
there is talk of my sister following.
if she goes, i go to.
if she does not go, i may go anyway.

my days here are numbered.

thought i would let you all know.

....yeah. that pretty much explains it all. it might be hard convincing my sister to move from her ..umm.. palace.. in columbus. but, hopefully i still know how to... manip... enlightening people. :) haha. i'm great.

i am still wounded from the fall. it is not pretty. its not AS sore, but it still sucks butt.
i will leave you with something to giggle at for... ever:

hahahahhahahahhahaahahhhaa...




this is also internesting
(intentional "mis"spelling.. i like to edit words to my liking. like differnut ! and ebersed!)
maybe some day i'll live out in the middle of nowhere and have nothing to do but keep myself entertained in my own little weird ways.
i love my wierd thoughts.<3

night world.

"last night i had two beers.
no, i was not drunk. but it was starting to effect my coordination enough to make me slip on my way down the staircase.
i tried to hold onto the railing.
i failed miserably because, i now have something somewhere between a little cut and a big bruise on my arm.
its hurts.
its sad.

this is good news to some.
its okay, i don't like me either.


well.. no that's a lie.
i love me.
but i cannot justify my actions.. or the lack thereof.
nor can i appologize.
but i AM sorry for not being sorry."

that covers a little of what i have to say tonight.
my Leeloo "costume" is failing, miserably. :( but i'm gonna try till i can try no more.
let's see, what else? well, Devon invited me to go to either Colorado or Vancouver with him. to stay. to live. i can't deny, it is a tempting thought.
oh wow, i just imagined...
just packing up one day and leaving. without telling a soul. just going. wow. that would be.... wow. :) liberating.
i've been up and down all day today. i usually am like this, but today it seems to be less extreme either way. i've also been sleeping a lot. maybe sleep = sanity? well, speaking of sleep, i have again become tired. but i'm pretty sure i have some more to say. i just can't think of it right now.
i'm going to google images of Vancouver. i don't recall ever being there, though i'm sure i have. we were all over Canada when i was little.
oh wow. what a beautiful place.
i get my hopes up about these kinds of things so easily. but who can blame me. look! :) its so pretty. i just love Canada. i think this would be a good thing, if i chose to do it. even if it *knock on wood* would end in catastrophe. it would be like... one of those self discovering things. i have some thinking to do.
hmm... i wonder what Colorado's like... :P

Goodnight, world.

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen.
There are 170 movies on this list.
Put your score in header and repost:

( ) Nacho Libre
( ) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the caribbean 2
(x) Orange County
(x) The Green Mile
(x) Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane!
(x) Red Eye
( ) Stick It
( ) Shes the Man
(x) 8 Mile

Total so far: 7

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) SNL's The Best of Will Ferrell
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Fun With Dick and Jane
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total so far: 17

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp

Total so far: 26

(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Cinderella Man
(x) The Village
( ) Lilo & Stitch

Total so far: 34

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
(x) The Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
( ) Robots

Total so far: 43

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
(x) KingPin
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
(x) King Kong (2005)

Total so far: 53

( ) Alice in Wonderland
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
(x) The Whole Ten Yards

Total so far: 71

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) 10 Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street1-8
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask

Total so far: 77

(x) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Sleven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(x) Superstar
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice age 2 The Meltdown

Total so far: 86

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3

Total so far: 92

(X) X-Men
(X) X-Men 2
(X) X-Men 3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x)Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

Total so far: 105

(x) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
(x) Old School
(x) K-Pax
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old-virgin
( ) The Hills Have Eyes ( either one)

Total Score: 113

i remembered one of my newest 43 things is finding one thing everday that makes me happy and writing it down for a year. so i thought i'd follow through with that one; i made a whole other blog (http://everlighte.blogspot.com) for it. i'm determined to do this! :D

other than that, today was mediocre. read the first 3 chapters of Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix at work. i'll read a few more before i go to bed.
i got nothing for you today.

ta ta!

i'm going to get a camcorder, probably within the next week or two. and i shall record the crap out of everything. just like Ricky Fitts!... but less creepy. even though, i must admit, that was a little hot.
i'm going to bed in thirty minutes. i need to start showing up to work on time. i got there today expecting to be the only one working, as always. but, my boss was there. i hear she's like in love with me (as an employee... because i'm just awesome like that) but she was like "i really need you to be on time". i felt bad. :( so, i'm sorry. and i'm going to work on that. i'm really going to get up at 8am and be nice and awake and responsible, even though having a routine is fucking dull. ugh.
today i got off work an hour early. i told my boss that i was thinking about going to the library cuz i've gotten the urge to read, as i do once in a while. so she let me go at four instead of five. she's cool like that. :)
so i walked to the library, then home. i like walking. even if i DID have a choice, i'd probably still walk a lot. its nice. gives me that stop-and-smell-the-roses type feeling. then i feel sorry for people who think they have to drive everywhere. its a different perspective. a pretty one. the trees look beautiful this time of year. even though it was cold as hell, the wind blowing was nice. made the trees even more beautiful. the world feels alive. i love autumn.
so, right now my nephew is supposed to be in his bed, asleep. but, he was sad because my sister had some business to attend to tonight, and isn't here. so i'm letting him watch cartoons in my room. he'll fall asleep eventually :P
wow, this is boring. i really have nothing important to talk about.
i'm EXTREMELY excited about getting orange hair. i can't wait. i'd do it right now if my sister would find out if they do that at her work, already. JEEZ! she works at ....some.... spa place or something. she just started working there, so i don't know too much about it. but, apparently they dye hair.. including orange, hopefully.
well, i'm gonna go make myself a cup of sleep time tea and read me some Harry Potter. my life is full of excitement, i know. i don't know how i handle it....

goodnight world! :)

on that site (www.novareinna.com), it says that the animals libras are associated with are elephants, snakes, lizards and all small reptiles. now, i agree with the snakes and reptiles. they're bad ass and i've always thought they were. but, i dunno about the elephants. i think they're fascinating creatures and all. smart as hell too, but i think hippos are cuter.
i mean, look at this baby hippo. how cute is that?!?!!?
the big one is another story. i just think they're adorable...
viscious... but adorable. :P














dunno why i thought it was necessary to make that known. lol. but now you know. :D

and as for "Spiritual Goal: To learn how to overcome personal fears"
...you can say that again.

Libra: Inner Self
Libra is the Sign of justice in the Zodiac, indicative of persons who balance everything to a nicety, always trying to promote good will and friendship...even if they must go to extremes to do so. This trait is accentuated by the inherent love of harmony and beauty, reflected by the beneficent glow of Venus, this Sign's Ruling Planet. Sympathy and understanding are paramount here. Libra natives will never be deaf to an appeal from family or close acquaintances and are likely to even side with total strangers if they seem to represent a deserving cause. Indeed, those who fall under the jurisdiction of Libra are inclined to champion the underdog, even against their more sound judgment. Again, this appears to be courtesy of the urge to equalize matters and produce harmony.
Considered to be one of the most charming Signs, Libra individuals are attractive, tactful, charismatic and popular. However, with a tendency to shrink from disagreements with others, Libra natives can also be regarded as evasive and indecisive as a result. These are souls who love to talk but, given the inherent value of the ability to explore and investigate all aspects of living, seldom get along well with people whose opinions are fixed. There is an inner desire here for immediate and warm relationships, coupled with a constant seeking to identify with the world around them by participating in the lives of others to the fullest extent. Libra individuals abhor loneliness and are creatures of moods...yet tend to look for companionship rather than more profound affairs. Although the intellect is highly developed, those ruled by this Sign are not necessarily scholarly. Still, a rich imagination endows their lives with the color and pace they desire, even if such is not attained in a realistic sense. There is a propensity here for Libra natives to work themselves to the point of exhaustion, often attending to irrelevant details and side-issues instead of the main task in hand, and this will be something that requires careful watching. Nonetheless, those governed by this Sign are generally inclined to take the middle course during life, veering neither to the right nor to the left, but steering a path that will please the majority of those around them.
Over and above cold reason, intuition is a better guide for Libra individuals, who experience difficulty anyway in putting their heads above their hearts when making a decision. This ability often enables them to ferret out deceit and insincerity, no matter how much it may be glossed over. However, if these natives prejudge a matter or listen to persons in whom they trust or sympathize, they can be carried far astray. Very susceptible to being influenced by those who impress them, Libra individuals will imitate the manners of such persons and may even pick up on their traits. However, since everything associated with this Sign is related to balance, the susceptibility of Libra persons will be offset somewhat by a strong-mindedness that can become firm and unflinching in purpose. Natives of Libra grow dissatisfied with anything wherein they are disregarded...even if it is to their own best interests. If they are not consulted on a matter, then they consider it unfair play and their high sense of impartiality is offended. Although these individuals are frequently imitative in conduct, they are likely to be original in ideas and quite farsighted because of their intuitive qualities. The motives of those governed by this Sign are always of the highest caliber, but they will act upon impulse when they deem it to be the correct course of action. Inherently generous, they expect that quality in those around them. Thus, they are inclined to regard the merest slight as a rank injustice, which will cause a rift between themselves and the person or persons otherwise involved.
Perhaps the worst fault of this Sign is the desire to take the easiest road. This could lead to trouble, particularly given the inherent liking for the "bright lights." Although there is certainly no sin in being fond of luxury and beautiful things, there is a danger in loving them to the exclusion of all else. The greatest strength here is most likely the ability to keep an open mind. It is the singular quality which will make most people like and respect Libra natives. But, within those governed by Libra resides a continual tug-of-war of which few others are aware...Libra persons find it exceedingly difficult to choose one philosophy and stay with it, or one set of moral values and keep to them. Being true romantics, love is paramount in the lives of Libra subjects. Indeed, love is all and everything would be well lost for the sake of love...if only the strength could be found to make such a sacrifice. On occasion, the way to disaster is paved with good intentions and Libra natives always have the best of those. An outlet for expressing emotions is of the utmost importance for happiness and this is why so many Libra individuals excel in the arts, being beguiling and most fascinating souls. Libra individuals like amusements and excitement. In addition, the inherent love of harmony makes them very fond of music.
Due to the measureless sympathy of those ruled by this Sign, they love humanity for itself alone. They display the utmost tenderness toward the afflicted and distressed...for the worthy unfortunates, no matter how lowly...and their goodness does not content itself with mere expressions of sympathy. Any worthy cause appeals to these natives in such a strong fashion that they will not hesitate to make personal sacrifices in order to be of practical assistance. This tendency also extends to the brutal and inhumane treatment of dumb animals. Indeed, there are probably no kinder-hearted people in the world than those governed by Libra. They are invariably honorable and just in all their dealings. In terms of friendships, Libra natives are attracted by personality and mental gifts rather than by social positions or the possession of wealth. Still, the temperament of these individuals can change suddenly from hopefulness to melancholy, such extremes of mood often coming and going very unexpectedly. Inharmonious surroundings can cause despondency or gloom. Quite often, those governed by this Sign are unable to explain their sudden low spirits brought on by nothing more than being out of harmony with their environments.
Bascially, Libra natives seem to believe their mission in life is to bring people and ideas together. However, if they are pushed in one direction, they sometimes have a tendency to push back in the opposite way. Frequently in two minds about things, those who fall under the jurisdiction of this Sign may experience initial difficulty in speaking up for themselves. Still, once the mind is made up, they usually make their decisions known fairly forcibly. There is a deep dislike here for anything abrasive or crude. There is also a desire to keep up appearances. Libra individuals are experts in the field of diplomacy and possess the ability to contain a situation courtesy of charm, persuasion, flattery, coercion, negotiation or, if necessary, outright manipulation.
Being the middle Air Sign, Libra is expected to be (and is) a gifted communicator...energetic and ambitious...sometimes generous to a fault and frequently brimming with inspiration. These are individuals who can display great moral fiber and ones who can withstand a run of bad luck or personal losses far better than any other Zodiac Sign. When spiritualized or awakened to the higher duties of humanity, Libra natives are evenly balanced and the good they can do is often quite phemonenal. Such Libra subjects are surrounded by mangnificent magnetic forces that maintain a high level of vigor. In addition, they are blessed with psychic powers and possess much knowledge and insight. Still, they would be hard put to explain how they "know" these things. Alternatively, this Sign's major negative challenges arise from hypersensitivity and a tendency to become anxious concerning the welfare of parents, children and close friends. They may react severely to a display of any form of combativeness and hostility...possibly going so far as to instantly flee from the presence of the perpetrator. Yet another challenge is the propensity toward self-indulgence, which manifests as a compensation mechanism for the failure to obtain that which Libra individuals believe they should possess. Always striving to please those around them, natives of this Sign have an insatiable appetite for flattery, which too often ends in disaster. It will also be necessary for Libra individuals to learn how to accept criticism, otherwise their sense of justice can become warped and they will argue themselves into accepting wrong as right, particularly when they yield to the wiles of those who would prey upon their sympathy rather than hearkening to the blunt words of true friends.
The secret fear of Libra subjects is being alone with themselves. This is a loving Sign whose natives will find a way around any impasse to bring peace and harmony into their lives and the lives of others...and whatever the method of achieving that may be, these are individuals who will mean everything from the bottom of their hearts.

Libra: Female
The Libra female is vibrant, vivacious and thoroughly captivating. Others cannot help to be drawn to her happy smile and are immediately conscious of her sex appeal. Although this is a flirtatious woman, she always remains the very epitome of diplomacy and tact. Thus, she is trusted by her friends. While blessed with taste and a sense of refinement, the female governed by this Sign does have a tendency to love the good life, which can lead to laziness and selfishness. Far from "fluffy" in her thinking, the Libra woman can prove to be a great asset to the career of any partner. She is never anything less than attractive in her appearance, mixes well with others, gets along with almost everybody and in addition to being tactful, is also shrewd. This is a female who looks for an adventurous and intelligent partner and if that partner be fairly well off, so much the better. However, she is not adverse to lending a hand in helping any mate to accumulate the good things of life. When young, this woman is often likened to a beautiful flower...essentially lovely to look at...but, with advancing years, she often finds that life has educated her to a high degree and she becomes wise, witty, entertaining, tolerant, amusing and in essence, a wonderfully rewarding person to know.
By nature refined, gentle and kindhearted, women governed by Libra are also amiable, being fond of entertainment and social gaiety. This female sometimes has grand illusions about many things and can become despondent when matters are not as she imagined or expected them to be. Still, this is a generous and lovable soul, whose artistic side craves beauty and harmony in her surroundings. There is also an innate desire to help those who are the unfortunates of this world. Essentially romantic, this is a woman who tends to be "in love with being in love," rather than with any particular person. Here, there is an intense desire for sympathy, love, understanding and companionship...but Libra is a most idealistic Sign and those who fall under its jurisdiction are frequently very difficult to satisfy. Beneath the apparent open affection, there is a streak of selfishness and sometimes shallowness associated with the Libra woman. In some instances, this can be traced to a lack of attention from one or both of this female's parents.
The Libra woman is an impeccable hostess, but one who is at her best when she has plenty of servants to do the actual work. While infinitely capable, this female frequently dislikes manual labor, particuarly if it means getting dirty. In essence, she prefers to snuggle back into a luxurious pile of cushions and summon assistance. Generally speaking, the physical side of a relationship is not necessarily important to this woman, but she certainly will enjoy playing one admirer against another. There is a tendency for this female to acquiesce to the desires of her parents when it comes to the choice of a mate. Thus, it is not unusual for women ruled by Libra to form a long-lasting relationship with someone who displays great potential rather than someone they truly love. Anyone considering this woman as a partner should not become involved with her unless serious and committed about doing so. She certainly needs affection but above all, she must believe in any potential mate...particularly in the area of character. This is not a female who deals well with compromise and she will quickly exit any relationship once she discovers she has betrayed herself.
Willing to sacrifice their own health and comfort for those they love, women governed by Libra will cheerfully endure any hardship. However, their extreme solicitude in this respect can make them apprehensive for fear that ill fortune lurks on the horizon. Hence, these females sometimes worry and fret without legitimate cause or reason. Eventually, this habit can exhaust their vitality, resulting in a peevish and melancholy nature that will react unfavorably upon the physical condition and nerves. There is also a tendency here to be careless with personal belongings and a bent toward being impatient and restless.
Above all else, the Libra female desires true affection, sympathy and interest...forever seeking the ideal companion. As a girlfriend, she is irresistible...as a wife she is intriguing, fun to be with and essentially feminine. As a mother, she is not one to necessarily concentrate unduly on her children, but she is nonetheless devoted and does radiate an affection and warmth that will spell security to any offspring she might have.

Moon in Pisces
The Pisces Moon is a senstive and creative Moon, being artistic, intuitive and most probably psychic. This Moon is most assuredly a dreamer. The Pisces Moon keeps emotions hidden, although the inherent extreme sensitivity makes this Moon sympathetic to the plight of the less fortunate and may lead to community service. The Pisces Moon feels all things deeply.

In general, the personality of those whose Moon sign is in Pisces indicates a character driven by emotions. Whatever appeals to these persons will attract them...music, literature or poetry, for example. These are individuals who change their minds very easily and to others, will sometimes give the impression of unreliability. When the "going gets tough," those ruled by a Pisces Moon will become discouraged. They adore change and any form of routine seems to literally drain the life from these persons. There is an easygoing nature here, but there is also a tendency toward shyness. Overall, the Pisces Moon is not perceived to be a favorable influence, often associated with glandular problems and obesity. On the outside, those governed by this Moon appear to be quite happy, but inwardly there is frequently depression and even a distinct lack of a sense of humor. At some time during the life of those who fall under the jurisdiction of the Moon in Pisces, hospitals, prisons or some other type of institution is almost certain to play an important role in some fashion. However, this aspect needs to be put into context and perspective with the rest of the individual's horoscope before any definite conclusions may be drawn, and it is vital that these subject not become discouraged. The Pisces Moon can be one of the most appealing, sociable, entertaining and humorous of all the Moon Influences dependent upon other factors. There is a flair for music here...either composing, writing or simply listening and appreciating the art. These are emotional and romantic souls with creative ideas, a strong imagination and a desire to make the world a better place, although there is a distinct distaste for anything which is ugly or disharmonious. Perhaps the major key word for the Pisces Moon individual is sacrifice. If the need of another is perceived to be greater than that of the person governed by this Moon, then he or she will willingly give all he or she has to the person in need. These people possess a strong psychic awareness and have the ability to pick up on subtle signs and signals that others might miss. The greatest danger for a person who falls under the jurisdiction of the Moon in Pisces is the tendency to become a martyr and allow personal needs to fade into insignificance. Boundaries are difficult to define by these individuals and they could easily be guilty of getting involved in the problems of others without being asked...although the intentions are always of the highest caliber.

Source: www.novareinna.com

these rock. (click for larger image)

so i was browsing the internet for a picture of something ....yeah.. and i came apon the Hitchhiker's Guide to the G-Spot. amusing. informative. fun! ahahaha.
my devil and angel itch like a mother fucker!! ahh!!
OOH! OOH! i have news! okay, i went to the Cobb County Adult Education Center (those fucking Jew bagels - no offense to any actual Jews, of course) and got the info about taking the GED test. registration is the day of halloween.... which brings me to my most important announcement in WEEKS!! (no.)
i will be dying my hair orange (hopefully this color). for two reasons:
1) orange hair is undescribabley awesome
2) LeeLoo has orange hair. i am dressing up as LeeLoo. we will see how long after halloween i keep the orangeness. i need to see how i like it first. i will be amused by the faces i get because of it. :)
another thing i might do involves the power symbol. only special people will hear of this.
i think i may have ADD.
that is all.

Shoo!

the title of this is part of... a song? i dunno. i couldn't come up with anything interesting so i typed "i had" in google and that was the first suggestion that came up. i like it. never heard the song though. with my luck, its probably something EVERYONE'S heard and i live under a rock. anywho...
i was bored, so i graffitied some pics i have. what'cha think?

that really is a good movie. everyone should watch it at least once. its kinda... almost life changing. eye-opening if nothing else.
well, i think i'm gonna go to bed early tonight. nothin' else better to do.

i leave you with this happy thought:

i just read 10 ways to become a better blogger. this is how bored i am. and, once i figure out the purpose and function of RSS... i don't know... but i will. haha.


is anyone out there paying attention?

fun fact:
did you know that there is a chakra for the GOOCH?! oh yes, it is true.





now, don't you feel all warm and fuzzy inside?

he is teh seckz.
don't you think?

today was kinda mediocre. well, there's no "kinda" about it, it was boring and average all around. i love this time of year. its pretty awesome. for the first time in my life, i think, i'm actually excited about the cold. i have no idea why. just makes me excited. i'm sure its just the change. i need change. i love change. i thrive on change.
random subject change:
i am thoroughly convinced that i am developing some psychic senses or something. lately.. (and by lately i mean the past few WEEKS) i've been picking up on things before they even happen. mostly songs that i hear or things people say. or, for example, i just randomly got the urge to watch American Beauty for the first time in probably 3 or so years. so i watched it (and it was just as great as i remember, if not better, because i've grown up a little and see things from a somewhat different perspective... AWESOME!) and then i randomly turn on TNT (which i NEVER watch) and there's commercials every 5 mintues for American Beauty. maybe its just a strange coincidence... but i don't like to think of things as coincidence. i think everything happens for a reason, no matter how insignificant that reason may be.
so yeah. there. i found something to babble on about and successfully contradicted yesterday's blog :)


and, oh yeah, i've adopted a new philosophy! this one is fool-proof..
"No matter who you are, I love myself more than you! I care about myself more than you, I matter more than you and I come first. Always. Period. :)"

so, you won't be seeing me with hurt feelings anymore, because i've learned to be selfish and care completely and only about myself. i can thank guys for this outlook. without them it would not have been made possible. thanks! :)
oh, and one more thing... from now on i will be treating any human creature with a penis* exactly how they have treated me.

i think i'm gonna just write in my real diary (i hate calling it that) from now on.

i'll return here someday. just not right now. i feel private, lately.

delete me from your memory

forget my name

i'm done with you

i evolve

i need someone to talk to
i have something to work through
in my head

i'll never know why
i can't be as numb as everyone else
god knows i try

i fall back
when i fall down
willing the end to come
i call it's name
my silence
my screaming plea
but i never meet it

stop me
stop knowing exactly what to say
disconnect and throw me away
so i can hate you
and be done with this

its always something
its always killing me
its always sad
its always keeping me alive
its never letting me breathe
its my suffocation
my constant fucking reflection
when all i want is to take a moment
to myself
and stretch it out
a lifetime

amputate my mechanism
fucking abuse my vulnerability
teach me a lesson
build my barrier back up

i was enjoying playing "heartless bitch"
its the safest way to play

ehh. this was to be expected. of course, it was. i have no life inside marietta. the friends i have here, i never see. therefor, as i have said before, but never quite meant as much as i do now... i'm gonna look into moving back down there. but first, i need to get a car.
i know i said that i'd have enough to pay for it by last week's pay, but thanks to my mom, that was not possible. i had to loan her a hundred bucks because she locked her keys in her car. good job, mom.
but whatever, i'm pretty chill right now. only problem is that i keep going from almost depressed to content, to feeling like i could loose it, then back to apathy again. i just need some company, really. i'm fine when i have someone to talk to. or even just be around. any other time i just feel... kind of empty. i just need good friends and good times again.
wonder if this will actually work out.

at least i have my imagination back.