ah, what a weight seems to have been lifted. i got a check from the GDOL today. *phew!* & i start work monday.. i think. maybe that's just the paperwork but nevertheless i HAVE a job. & another check on the way. & i'm gonna keep gettin' em till i get my first paycheck. HA! >:P take that!
so the pieces of my crumbling world have begun to fall back into place, as i have been waiting for them to. it's bunches easier to keep my spirits up now. i'm sure something will pop up and fuck it all up, but hey.. i'm optimistic. like, my car. i need new tags. gonna try to get that done this week. with my luck it won't pass emissions & i'll have to pay a small fortune (in my opinion) to get it fixed. i want to sell that piece of shit. it's really love/hate with my car. i love her for being my first car and she DOES get me from A to B.. but she's fucking anxiety inducing and aggravating as hell. ah well.. not gonnna worry about anything tonight. as soon as the figures of authority go to bed, i'm gonna get a little drink on & have a little one on one celebration with myself for FINALLY starting to get a sense of how things are gonna be. got somewhat of a plan for the next few months constructed in my busy little brain. i like planning things out. they rarely become reality but it gives me something to think and be excited about instead of sitting around feeling like i'm just existing here as sad little depressing a waste of life. :) rollercoaster, up? ...probably. ehh! i'm enjoying it while it lasts. :D

nite nite world.
tis' possible i will return before the night's end, as i feel like writing... we shall see.