Well, I actually had almost a whole page written out. But I decided certain eyes need not see such things, just yet. I'll leave those thoughts in my head, where they won't cause trouble.

Anywho...

Today marks the first successful vegetarian day. It's wasn't really that hard. I find it easy to say no, despite Lael's bitchily taunting me. I yelled at her. :) Problem solved.
Today I've been completely consumed with the what if's and the countless ambitions to which I could aspire. I guess it's only natural to float up to the clouds, being mere days from a brand new year. A new chance. Clean slate, if you will. So many things I've been meaning to get the ball rolling for. Every year is "the year" I'll make a dent. But seriously this time, (lol, as if that hasn't been said) WHAT IF?!
What if I actually got my shit together, kicked my ass enough to get my ducks in a row. I know I can do it all. I just lack consistent focus. One day my world exists for one thing, the next it's the farthest thing from my mind. Due either to preoccupation with something else, or just random loss of interest without any reason. This upsets me, too. I will work on that, this year. I will not get lost in the clouds. I will try to keep from being so incredibly inside my head and remember the deals I made with myself "yesterday".
I will not be careless with spending.
I will save and become independent, once again.
I will begin school in March.
I will be productive.
Ugh, so many other things. I've taken a couple steps and at least one leap back, this year. This past month, I think I've finally started to crawl my way forward. For now, it's baby steps for a little while I think.
One thing is certain. Success is mine. :D

Now I must get my rest. I have plenty of work ahead of me.
Goodnight, kiddies!