nervous, scared, happy, excited, confused, extremely curious
i think i can be brave.
i hate that, when people look my in the eye, my instict is to look away. like if they see into my eyes, they see into my soul.
of course..... everyone says that.
i feel like i have some big secret that i have to keep. but i don't. i have NOTHING to hide. i like who i am. maybe i'm just trying to save the best of myself for someone who i feel deserves it.
i don't know.
enough of this.
the other day, the mirror caught my eye. it's amazing how time flies. i don't know if that's a good or bad thing. somewhere in between, i suppose.
i just have things on my mind. anxiety sets in. i don't want to fuck this up. i'm trying to be open and honest. it's hard for me to do that sometimes. i don't know when it started. i never thought i'd be the kind of person that shuts people out. but i think it could be very worth it. right now i'm just tip-toeing around this.

...barefooted :P