so i thought i'd write my thoughts.
hmm.. i need to relax. i have time. i have space. i'm not going anywhere anytime soon. i'm just restless. and not having anyone to hang out with lately has been having it's toll on me. but that's what happens when your friends become part of a couple. and i'm not going to be selfish. good for them.

a sadness has come over me these past few days, but only because i have allowed it to. i'm dwelling on what i do not have and ignoring what i do have. i should stop. life is good. these are my best years and i'm wasting most it with negativity and depression. maybe i just like the feeling. maybe pain reminds me i'm human. i am alive.

anyway, on a happier note... GOD am i fucking thrilled that the seasons are shifting. that means i will be able to hide my inner blondeness that shows when it's cold and i am not wearing enough. (it's just wishfull thinking!!)

i should probably go to bed now. but i don't want to miss a second of this time where i can safely keep my window open without anyone bitching.

damn the man!

goodnite world.<3